Remembering to dream big

Reaffirming a dream: I want to do a Lantern Light Show with many hand made lanterns, both large ones that hang with full art on them, and smaller ones that I can have float in a lake. i wish to have them flicker like candles and fireflies are lighting them up. Ideally, I'd like to do this over a pond... or maybe at a National Park. I just need to get one working model done, so I can show proof of concept. I also still need to figure out a place to do this at.

I am depressed as hell, but I don't want to give up on my stupid dreams. I keep seeing little ones come true, I'd just like a big one to work out for once.