sarah_tv | [Art Thoughts] I feel lost

I feel lost.

Artistically, I've been struggling this year. I've got pages and pages of sketches half started, little doodles here and there, but nothing on a grand scale very well constructed. Summer is probably the first thing in weeks I would want to hang, and I'm not sure I want to go in that direction.

I have been feeling that I have been not paying attention to something important, that I've moved in a direction that I never really intended on going. Take the thick outlines on illustrations recently. That's something which I half learned from various books. It's not really what I intended to do. I'm not even sure I want to keep doing it. It just is there. I'm not really sure if it make anything more complete, just emphasis a center of focus. I didn't *used* to feel the need to draw people to the center of focus.

My influences have wandered away from ... okay, I don't know where they have been, but now they are not even there. I feel I should be doing something more, something grander, and more finished, but nothing is coming out lately. I don't *think* I'm depressed, but I can't help but feel that I've not been giving more than I should.

I promise I'll find where I am suppose to be, and if nothing else, you'll still get little cartoons and animal pictures. I never, ever, am going to stop doing those. However, I need to find bigger things. I just don't know what those things are, yet.

Love and Lollipops.