Nighttime Doodles
Nov. 21st, 2011 08:10 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sarah_tvSo, I have a friend who has been working on commissions at night on a stream, and I found out I could join the stream, and there are all sorts of artist, so it's like a real jam session, and I got a way to project my Tablet so yeah! I can share too...
... never mind that there is a color difference between my tablet and the screen... I'll fix that sometime... but I can join in! Yeah!
Of course, this brings out a different issue, and that is *I* don't know what I am drawing! It's embarrassing a little. These other artists are working very carefully on their drawings to get it right, and they work on the same one for days....
And I'm doodling and doodling,a nd coloring in, and doodling more, and I go through like a dozen sketches while they are finishing one... or half of one... or something. Not all the sketches I do I keep, and not all the sketches I do I color in... and heaven knows a lot of it isn't refined, but I just am pumping out all these ideas, because I don't know what I want to do.
And really, it's getting to the point where I start by throwing some random lines out, and I just... carve scenes out of them. I did this mad Scribble.... and it turned into like a Occupier holding a bed sheet, while a Riot Police dude was holding .... something I couldn't define before I abandoned the idea...
The point is, is that I so want to have this frame of mind that can work on something that long, or just be decisive, you know? That somewhere in me I have a good idea, and that I would want to take time on that good idea. But it's Make More Stuff... and keep making more stuff! STUFF!
....
It takes me about 4 to 5 minutes to rough out concepts to the point that they are recognizable. That's a deer. That's a Boar. That's deer dodging boar... That's a back. That's a cheetah... that's so on and so on... It takes me half a hour to take that rough idea into a rough color. Part of this, mind you, has to do with the Tablet, which is so tiny. I'm only working inside a 3x4 inch space, I think, and that leads to quick building, and sure, I could make the canvas larger, but I don't think that would actually improve the situation any...
....
All I want is to have certainty in myself, of knowing what I want to do... and while I do have that when I sit down to do a negative thing, because I *have* to, because borders are so important in those, when left to on the spur of the moment, it's just PUMP PUMP PUMP.
... and I realize that I've probably ALWAYS been like this, now that I think about it.
I just wish I knew if this was a good thing, or a bad thing. I have no way to judge.
... never mind that there is a color difference between my tablet and the screen... I'll fix that sometime... but I can join in! Yeah!
Of course, this brings out a different issue, and that is *I* don't know what I am drawing! It's embarrassing a little. These other artists are working very carefully on their drawings to get it right, and they work on the same one for days....
And I'm doodling and doodling,a nd coloring in, and doodling more, and I go through like a dozen sketches while they are finishing one... or half of one... or something. Not all the sketches I do I keep, and not all the sketches I do I color in... and heaven knows a lot of it isn't refined, but I just am pumping out all these ideas, because I don't know what I want to do.
And really, it's getting to the point where I start by throwing some random lines out, and I just... carve scenes out of them. I did this mad Scribble.... and it turned into like a Occupier holding a bed sheet, while a Riot Police dude was holding .... something I couldn't define before I abandoned the idea...
The point is, is that I so want to have this frame of mind that can work on something that long, or just be decisive, you know? That somewhere in me I have a good idea, and that I would want to take time on that good idea. But it's Make More Stuff... and keep making more stuff! STUFF!
....
It takes me about 4 to 5 minutes to rough out concepts to the point that they are recognizable. That's a deer. That's a Boar. That's deer dodging boar... That's a back. That's a cheetah... that's so on and so on... It takes me half a hour to take that rough idea into a rough color. Part of this, mind you, has to do with the Tablet, which is so tiny. I'm only working inside a 3x4 inch space, I think, and that leads to quick building, and sure, I could make the canvas larger, but I don't think that would actually improve the situation any...
....
All I want is to have certainty in myself, of knowing what I want to do... and while I do have that when I sit down to do a negative thing, because I *have* to, because borders are so important in those, when left to on the spur of the moment, it's just PUMP PUMP PUMP.
... and I realize that I've probably ALWAYS been like this, now that I think about it.
I just wish I knew if this was a good thing, or a bad thing. I have no way to judge.
