Art Dispair
Dec. 16th, 2011 05:38 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sarah_tvI typically don't feel art despair very often. I enjoy what I do, and I like what I do... but lately...
... Funds are really tight. I have to miss the one Sales Experience that I typically make in a year this year, by missing Further Confusion, and I don't know if I'll get another chance at all as the year goes on. The local galleries are all focused either on Tomas Kinkade level art, or are conservative in their appeal, and quite frankly, my non-furry art doesn't belong in any of them. No place that I've been to in the Bay Area is experimental enough, and the only place that I found that *is*, the Trenton Museum, would want exhibits that are currently beyond my means to produce.
It doesn't help that I feel virtually ignored. Oh, sure, I have a friend that complains that they aren't popular, but if you compare his page views to mine, you'd see a completely different story. What is worse though, is that I don't know exactly what would fix this. Take more anatomy? No, look at that broken anatomy on this high hit artist. That's not the problem. Subject matter? I don't know. Maybe, but somehow I doubt it. Sociability? What am I going to do talking about art that I don't really dig? Level of Detail? It's not Bright or Electronic enough? I mean, what?
It doesn't HELP that where I am sitting right now, there are three or four ways of going with my art, and the VACUUM and lack of feed back is killing me. I don't know which way to go, I don't know if anyone even appreciates the new direction I'm trying this year, and I don't have any feedback to know if anyone actually likes any of it. Even my family is kinda "Yeah, whatever". The last art show was a complete disaster, with art too close to the band, and the sales tables, and just too loud so I couldn't get anything but a few nice words at the very end.
I mean, crap. All I want to know is what I should be doing. I want confirmation that any direction, I mean, ANY direction is an acceptable one, or will be at least appreciated. I don't *have* any way to get that feedback. I don't HAVE any peers. Sure, I know Artists, but none of them are doing ANYTHING that I am doing. They are off illustrating their own things, and just...
I just don't know what it is I'm suppose to be doing anymore. What is my art suppose to be, and will anyone really care? I want people to care a bit. I just don't know where to go to find the people that want to see it, though. I don't know where it belongs, or if it ever will belong.
... Funds are really tight. I have to miss the one Sales Experience that I typically make in a year this year, by missing Further Confusion, and I don't know if I'll get another chance at all as the year goes on. The local galleries are all focused either on Tomas Kinkade level art, or are conservative in their appeal, and quite frankly, my non-furry art doesn't belong in any of them. No place that I've been to in the Bay Area is experimental enough, and the only place that I found that *is*, the Trenton Museum, would want exhibits that are currently beyond my means to produce.
It doesn't help that I feel virtually ignored. Oh, sure, I have a friend that complains that they aren't popular, but if you compare his page views to mine, you'd see a completely different story. What is worse though, is that I don't know exactly what would fix this. Take more anatomy? No, look at that broken anatomy on this high hit artist. That's not the problem. Subject matter? I don't know. Maybe, but somehow I doubt it. Sociability? What am I going to do talking about art that I don't really dig? Level of Detail? It's not Bright or Electronic enough? I mean, what?
It doesn't HELP that where I am sitting right now, there are three or four ways of going with my art, and the VACUUM and lack of feed back is killing me. I don't know which way to go, I don't know if anyone even appreciates the new direction I'm trying this year, and I don't have any feedback to know if anyone actually likes any of it. Even my family is kinda "Yeah, whatever". The last art show was a complete disaster, with art too close to the band, and the sales tables, and just too loud so I couldn't get anything but a few nice words at the very end.
I mean, crap. All I want to know is what I should be doing. I want confirmation that any direction, I mean, ANY direction is an acceptable one, or will be at least appreciated. I don't *have* any way to get that feedback. I don't HAVE any peers. Sure, I know Artists, but none of them are doing ANYTHING that I am doing. They are off illustrating their own things, and just...
I just don't know what it is I'm suppose to be doing anymore. What is my art suppose to be, and will anyone really care? I want people to care a bit. I just don't know where to go to find the people that want to see it, though. I don't know where it belongs, or if it ever will belong.
